Do you ever get over that feeling?
The feeling that you’ll never be cool enough, as lame and pathetic as it may be to still want that as an adult. As I gain confidence in one area, a whole new avenue of geekhood opens up. There are people that you can never impress, as hard as you try, as much as you want to, and you’ll always wind up feeling like the big-mouthed little sister who just wants to be a part of things. And no matter where I go, I’m either too smart or not smart enough; too oddball or barely more than mundane; and too young or too old. Most everyone feels this way, I know. I wonder, is there anyone who actually feels like they fit in in this world?
I’ve never been anyone’s little sister, but this is exactly how I feel, ALL OF THE TIME. I’ve missed your voice and your words in my life, these last twelve years, and I didn’t even know it until this morning.
Melina
July 7, 2008
I feel like that every.single.day. Mostly because you’re so much cooler than I am.
Katrina
July 7, 2008
I doubt there is anyone who feels like they fit. I know I’ve never met anyone who has. I think the closest was my great-grandmother, she fit perfectly in her world, it was when she left it she didn’t fit.
Angie
July 10, 2008
I don’t think you ever lose it. I haven’t. Some places I feel like I am King of the World, other places I feel like a complete idiot. The key, I think, is to be okay with not being able to shine in every situation. I really think that’s just impossible.
Tracy
July 10, 2008